Change is due

You blame me for what happened to us. You say Im selfish and insensitive, that I did not appreciate the love you were giving me. That I just took you for granted.

But I didn't.

The thing is, you never really knew me. I know, I know. You keep saying you do - in fact, that you know me better than I know myself. But if that were true, why have we never understood each other properly? I never understood how much you loved me, and how much pain I was unintentionally causing you. And you never understood why I never saw any of that - you just assumed I would, without you having to say anything at all.

You see, Im not a mind reader. Our minds work differently, not only because we are wired differently, but also because we are two very unique people. That is mostly a good thing, but in our case, it proved to be our achilles' heel.

We relied too much on intuition, but our signals never matched.

It hurts, but I have to accept that maybe they were never meant to. That maybe WE were never meant to be.

You have said your goodbyes. I accept that. I hope you accept my apologies too, for whatever it's worth. I hope you eventually understand that I never meant to hurt you. I also want to be loved just as much as you do. But I'm also human and I'm not perfect. If you cannot come to terms with that, I'm sorry.

Now it's time for me to say my goodbyes. Then I will move on.

And I pray for the strength to do so.