To The-One-That-Got-Away

Wow. I checked your profile on the social network today and I feel like I've been hit by a 4x4 truck.

You're already in a new relationship and you're so sweet to this new girl. Your cheesiness is all over the page.

I didn't expect you to have moved on so quickly. It's like nothing happened between us. Those years of missed signals and mixed messages never existed. And those "feelings" you say you've kept for me all this time - where have they gone?

I guess I shouldn't have been surprised at all. You have said your goodbyes already anyway. But a part of me thought you would be hurting just as much as I was. I thought you would wait at least a few months before looking for a new one.

I thought wrong.

Maybe I wasn't really as important to you as you said I was. Maybe you didn't really love me, and you just wanted to have a girlfriend - anyone who would be willing. And I don't like that at all. So I guess I made the right choice all along.

I have waited this long to find the one person who was meant for me. I can wait some more until I find him... until I'm sure.

I admit that right now I am still hurting. But this is really more because of what never was - what could never be. I'm not really mad at you, I'm just... sad.

Truth be told, I had already accepted our fate the moment I sent you that email. I had known then that we could never be, there's just too many factors working against us. We were only meant to be exactly what we are now - really good friends.

But acceptance does not protect me from the pain, does it? When I saw your photos together, those sweet messages, I felt a sharp pinch in my chest. That's when I realized that I had an open wound there with your name on it. But I will heal. I'm sure of it. Just give me time.

I AM sincerely grateful that we are still friends. But I just have to stay away from you for now because I need to adjust my thoughts a bit. I need to refocus, and I cant do that if we are still as close as before. I will be back, I promise. And by then, I will be the old girl you once loved, the one you still consider to be a good friend.

In the meantime, I wish you luck. I hope you have found the right person for you and I hope you find with her the happiness that you say you have been looking for.

Goodbye for now... my friend.